All Good Things…
Posted on Tuesday, December 30th, 2003… must come to an end. And so 2003’s end approaches, less than 48 hours away.
After a weekend of snowboarding (which will explain the soreness) and hanging out with some of the residence guys, I feel that I am due for a reflection on the months past. So here it is:
The year of 2003, like most others, rode much like a roller coaster: there were highs and lows, bumps and bruises, plenty of fear, yet an abundance of excitement. This year, however, I feel that I reached new highs. I have learned a lot this year; about the guitar, about the people around me, about the topics covered in school, about God, about me. This year, I have also felt the most satisfying happiness that I have ever felt before.
It began in a ditch; I came off of my first school term into a very tough second term. I had a new roommate, a new Don, and plenty of strangers around me. Gradually, each of these improved, and things were going pretty well. My faith derailed for a bit (as it usually does), but restored quickly as friendships flourished. The spring was unforgettable, the summer was challenging, and the fall was invigorating.
There were a lot of memorable experiences this past year, perhaps moreso than any other year. From some of these experiences, I have learned a great deal and I can only hope that I have changed for the better in response to these realizations. Yet not all was happy-go-lucky this year, either. I have to face the reality that I had to bid goodbye to many dear friends for an unknown amount of time. I have to cope with the many terrible mistakes I made which really hurt me. I have to accept what comes at me in life, and pull through.
I can’t say that I was wholly good this year; I said plenty of things that I shouldn’t have said, held my tongue when I should have spoken out, done things I shouldn’t have done, and remained passive when I should have done something. But we’re all guilty of this, and I can’t blame myself forever if I did do it. So, too, is it true that people struggle with their faith, hurt others, and fail.
Despite all of the downs that I have had, however, I still remain confident that 2003 had many more ups. 2003 was a very good year for so many reasons, and I will try my best to cling to that. I took a lot of steps forward this past year, and I pray that I can keep the momentum up for 2004 and the years to come. I also pray that the times ahead shine brightly on all of you, my dear friends; you deserve the best.
I think that I would like to share a few resolutions that I have made for this coming year, or those that I need to continue from before. It will be very difficult for me to keep them all, but a goal is being made:
1. Stop complaining about stupid things – I know that I whine a lot, and I know that it’s annoying. I’d be annoyed if I had to listen to myself all of the time. So, my complaints jar is already up and running.
2. Go to Church every week – I was good for the first bit of this term, but began to slack on this. Be it chapel, Embassy, or St. Jerome’s, I have to be to at least one of them once a week. I need my organized time with God.
3. Pray – Not that I don’t already, but I don’t think that I do enough. Communication is the key to any successful relationship, and if I want one with God, I need to do some talking.
4. Stay vigiliant in my faith – By this, I really mean to try harder to avoid sin. I have knowingly sinned many times this year, and I cannot allow this to continue. I am not proud of sinning, and I want to be rid of it.
5. Use sarcasm appropriately – Just like my whining and complaining, I know that I am also ridiculously sarcastic. While usually used in jest, I know that it has the ability to hurt others. I need to hold my tongue with this.
6. Be nice – Somewhat related to Resolution 5, I need to be more sensitive to other people. I must be mindful about being a good person to my friends and family, and even to strangers.
7. Work out every day – Probably one of the hardest resolutions for me, since I’m not particularly motivated to much of anything besides sleep! But if I want to live a healthy life, I have to work towards it.
Continuations…
8. Continue to avoid swearing – The swear jar is getting expensive, but it’s good incentive for me to watch my language. I’m getting better!!
9. Continue to expect the most out of myself – Aim high. Sure, I’m setting myself up to be disappointed, but I’d rather try and fail to be exceptional than just pass at being mediocre.
10. Continue to be thankful – It’s so easy to take things for granted, and it’s so easy to let the luxuries that we all have slip our minds. I am very lucky to be where I am right now, to have the things I do, and to know the people that I do. Thank you, God, for everything! 🙂
And that just about does it. If I nail these 10, I’ll be the perfect guy or something, wouldn’t I? 😛 Sure, sure, Justin.. keep dreaming. But as I like to say, go big or go home! Why else would I try to shoot the moon in Hearts?
Again, my best wishes in this coming year to all of you! God bless us all!
