Where Am I?
Posted on April 8th, 2005Well it has been another late one but, thankfully, it had nothing to do with homework. Instead, I spent some time getting over a rough few hours this evening. It started with an impromtu trip to Sobey’s where I picked up some valuable items (conditioner, chocolate milk, and more club soda), and continued at Jasmine’s place.
We played Scrabble with her roommate (and my future roommate), Cynthia. Feeling a little uncertain of my ability (it has been years since I have last played), I hesitantly agreed to the challenge. As it turns out, a few key strategic moves and a couple of good scoring words got me a win. But it was close; Cynthia was right on my tail.
She retired to her room to finish up some work and then get to bed. This left the two of us remaining with the task of finding something to do. We contemplated the very limited amount of time we have left to spend in our current capacity (17 days, at best), and I lamented how weird it is going to be. Strange as it sounds, I’m really going to miss Jasmine. She has truly been one of my best friends.
The discussion progressed onward to talk about our faiths, and how much they have changed over the course of the past couple of years. While I have been moving away from the Catholic church, she has been drawing nearer to it. Now, we find ourselves at roughly the same spot, and it’s quite a predicament.
We both explained to each other that there were so many uncertainties with what we have in our faiths. We both expressed a newfound openness to other doctrines that we never had before. We both confided our doubts and insecurities. We both supported our current positions (which are remarkably similar).
At the end of it all, I wondered where I am with my faith. I told Jasmine that I wonder if there is even more change in store.. if the past two or three years is only a start of something more grandiose than I had ever imagined. While there still is a great deal of ambiguity, I still feel that the basics are covered, and covered well. So maybe it doesn’t matter quite so much where I am right now. Rather, perhaps it is ensuring that we’re heading in the right direction that does.
April 8th, 2005 at 10:31 am
Interesting. Over the last 1-2 years, I’ve found myself becoming more open to the Catholic church and have gained a better understanding of where they are coming from. I doubt that I’ll ever join the church, but I’m coming to appreciate the beauty in the rites and traditions that they observe.
Personally, I’ve found that my beliefs, while still essentially the same, have been shaped and moulded a lot over the past few years at UW. There is even more change in store for you, bud. Just you wait. 😉
April 8th, 2005 at 10:32 am
Interesting. Over the last 1-2 years, I’ve found myself becoming more open to the Catholic church and have gained a better understanding of where they are coming from. I doubt that I’ll ever join the church, but I’m coming to appreciate the beauty in the rites and traditions that they observe.
Personally, I’ve found that my beliefs, while still essentially the same, have been shaped and moulded a lot over the past few years at UW. There is even more change in store for you, bud. Just you wait. 😉