Withdrawl

It seems to me like I’ve been spending money like no tomorrow. I guess part of the reason is because I’m making more frequent purchases now that I’m off campus. Too often have I made one lump sum payment at the beginning of the term and then proceed to forget about most of my living expenses. The only thing I really had to worry about was laundry money. And now it’s the complete opposite: laundry’s ‘free’, and I need to fret about rent, food, and stuff for around the house. Bizaare-o!

Another reason is because I can’t seem to control the swipe of my bank card or credit card. Recently, whenever I have been at a mall, I don’t carry my wallet. This prevents me from making haste, spontaneous decisions to spend money on things that I really don’t need to buy. I need food, and I need to pay for the roof over my head. I don’t need more CDs or more gadgets.

Today, however, I had time to kill in downtown Toronto. Without my trusted walking, talking purse holding my wallet for me, I had a license to spend at will. And I did. I was picking stuff out like crazy at HMV! Part of me on the inside was having a quiet revolution, knowing that this will cause me grief in the not-so-distant future. But it remained quiet enough so that I could still walk out of the store with four new CDs. Frig!

Perhaps I was appeasing my guilty conscience because I download music; I bought albums that I already have on my computer. But I always said that, if I really like the music, I’d buy it. So my rational spending habits took a backseat as I picked up Radiohead, Muse, and a couple of Death Cab for Cutie albums. Hey at least I’ll have some more awesome music in my CD collection, right? Now if only I could somehow manage to win the lottery…

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