Ask anyone. It’s probably the phrase that I say the most. And I’m probably one of the most indecisive people that they know.

But it goes so much further than indecision. It’s a general uncertainty about almost everything. I don’t like making promises. I don’t like setting deadlines. I don’t like new situations.

All three, however, have been taking over my life lately. I’ve made many promises to friends, associates, and myself. I’ve set deadlines for my work with the Embassy, my school stuff, and my day-to-day things. I’ve been exposed to new situations at the Embassy, in friendships, and my residence.

The future is very foggy; I don’t know if I can keep my promises (although I will certainly try), I don’t know if I will meet the deadlines, and I don’t know if I will like my situations.

One of my primary concerns (and there are many) is the shift from St. Paul’s to my own place. I wrote about it in an earlier entry, but it hasn’t really sunk in until now. With a new school term on the horizon, I’m noticing so many things that are different. I don’t know if I can get used to it. Frig frig frig.

I’m actually a little scared. God, please take my hand and guide me through this term… I certainly can’t do it on my own.

goodnight, to every little hour that you sleep tight
may it hold you through the winter of a long night
and keep you from the loneliness of yourself
heart strung is your heart frayed and empty
cause it’s hard luck, when no one understands your love
it’s unsung, and i say

goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day
goodnight, always, to all that’s in your heart

goodnight, may your dreams be so happy and your
head light with the wishes of a sandman and a
night light, be careful not to let the bedbugs
sleep tight nestled in your covers

the sun shines but i don’t
a silver rain will wash away
the sun shines but i don’t
a silver rain will wash away

and you can tell, it’s just as well
and you can tell, it’s just as well

goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day
goodnight, always to all that’s pure that’s in your heart

I’m going to get a bike in the next couple of weeks. That is for certain. But there is one question that looms over me: do I get a bus pass?

I figured that if I ride the bus 32 times a month, then it would be worthwhile. Realistically, I’d be looking at 16 trips a month, seeing as how I would need a ride to and from any destination. Add in the convenience of not having to buy tickets all of the time, and it sounds like a good deal.

Then we throw in the bike factor. Assuming that the weather will be moderately nice this summer, I intend on riding my bike to school on a regular basis. Trips to Sobey’s will almost undoubtably be made on my bike, too.

So do I suck it up and get a pass on top of my bike, or should I just bite the bullet and live off of tickets until the fall?