I’m not sure what it is. Over the past few weeks, I have grown increasingly unsettled and I can’t seem to shake it.

I should begin that, while I do miss home, I still have a lot of things keeping me in New York. So this is not necessarily a location thing. Nor is it necessarily a job thing; Bloomberg is a great company and I am grateful for the opportunity to work there.

What I think it boils down to is a passion thing. I’m not passionate about New York, nor am I passionate about the finance industry. Now, up to this point, I have used a lot of negations so let’s turn things around a little.

I want to make a difference. I want to help people. I want to know that I am helping people. (That’s why I love Forefront!) There are lots of opportunities here in New York to make it happen, and I just need to be more willing to sacrifice my time, energy, and money to do it. More importantly, I need to start taking risks.

I recently re-read the commencement address that Steve Jobs gave at Stanford a few years ago. The part on death was particularly moving and, somehow, I need to take it to heart.

Something’s gotta give.