Another thought..
Posted on April 25th, 2004Just as I was praying tonight… another thought dawned on me, and I’d just like to write it down before I go back to bed.
I find it so ironic that I don’t know my purpose in life. Even though I am reading a book about it, I’m so lost and without direction. True, I’m only done three days of reading, and I know what my ultimate purpose is (to get into Heaven, of course), I don’t have any clude about what my purpose here on Earth is.
I was talking with Sarah, who organizes the New Kind of Christian group and the Embassy/Elevation band, and I was telling her that I am convinced that I am not in the right program. What’s worse is that I don’t know where I’d rather be. Nor do I have an idea about a career. The best that I could manage when talking with her is “something humanitarian.”
So basically, I’m just floating along in life, waiting for something to inject some sort of purpose in my life.. something to orient me and give me a direction. I know where I want to go, but of the many routes that can take me there, I don’t know where one is right for me. I really hope that God can give me a hand with this one…
April 26th, 2004 at 1:28 am
i’ve just caught up on your journal an i am liking what i read! sounds like you’ve got a good summer ahead of you, with the purpose driven life, NKOC groups and more involvement at the embassy. as wierd as it sounds, i envy you a little! haha ..that you get to be there with everyone at embassy, getting to know them better and with people at st pauls as well. i’ll miss you all! hopefully my summer will be equally full. well, God has never let me down so far, so why doubt him this time? i should be visiting sometime maybe during your first week back. before the 15th, i hope, because i have free time until then (thats when costco can take me back for sure). anyways have a good week. i’ll keep you and your spiritual mjourney in my prayers. ps, read Relevant magazine. has some good relevant stuff in it 😉
*kat
April 28th, 2004 at 12:21 pm
Hey kiddo! Nice to see that you still read this lol 🙂
I’m very excited with the changes that are happening in my life (if you couldn’t tell already). I think these are some important steps in the right direction, and I really hope that I can keep it up!!
I look forward to your visit, and there’s an abundance of single rooms if you need to crash 🙂 It’s a bit saddening to hear that you’re going back to Costco (at least, for the interim), but I’ll continue to pray that you’ll find something that you’d enjoy more. You certainly deserve it and are capable of so much better.
I’ll take a look at a mag next time I’m at Embassy! I heard Bono was in a recent issue, so I hope that I can get my hands on that one! 😛
Have a great week, yourself, and God bless 🙂 Talk to you soon!
JC